This week was the first time in over six years that I didn’t feel like posting a blog. I just don’t feel like doing anything. I always try to write the blog before the Wednesday so as to not have issues in case of technical difficulties. Yesterday was fifteen years since my mom died and after all this time it still has an impact on my feelings. It’s always said time will heal and it does however it doesn’t erase all the feelings and the memories. The memories yesterday were the ones that happened on the day and going forward it will be what she did at Christmas time and how happy she would be at this time of the year. She LOVED Christmas. I don’t know if there is anything that I could do to prevent the memories of that day from just being there. Interestingly it has gotten better over the years because I no longer just break down when I think of her gone. It’s not that I have become numb to her being gone it’s just that the pain is not as intense. Sigh.
How does one get to the point where the pain goes away? Actually does it ever go away? How I counteract that feeling is to think of the things I’m grateful for and that helps to lift the spirit. My daughter was a little less than six months old when my mom died and I look at her as the one that took me through those times. She was a happy baby and so loving. Now the aliens have taken her away as a teenager and I guess I will get her back soon 🤣. I focused on her and ensured she was fine after all I didn’t want my mother haunting me because her granddaughter wasn’t being taken care of. You all know how grandparents behave. How is it that they think their grandkids are so fragile but we were not? I wonder about that 🤔. Any way that’s another blog.
Yesterday I couldn’t believe it was so many years gone as I kept seeing everything as if it was really yesterday. Time sure flies and we must live our lives as best we can. Life is after all for living. It’s ok to look back and ensure we are connecting the dots to where we are and look forward to where we want to go but live in the now. Live in the present. I know it’s easier said than done but that what I try to do because without doing that there is a great chance that depression etc will take hold. Cry, but know you have so much to live for so pick yourself off the ground and brush yourself off and continue down this road we call life. It’s not the destination that’s the important thing but the journey. It has its twists and turns and it’s for us to move along with them.
Let me know what you think, I really want to know and I sure others do too. Try commenting 👍🏽, but if you are not comfortable, reach out to me via any medium. Your comments let me know how you feel and very often give me a total different perspective on the topic. It could also spawn another blog. 😉. And you can never tell your comment might help others. But
Always remember life is for living and you must always live your best life. #lifeisforliving #liveyourbestlife #gratefulforlife #faithgreaterthanfear
See you next Wednesday at 8:00 pm, Bogota time.
I would love it if you would say something, anything and tell someone. 🙏🏽
