Weekend gone my husband chastised me for my lack of filters. He said what I did on two occasions was not nice. Sigh, I agree on one. If my filters had kicked in it wouldn’t have happened. I have to learn to engage me mind before my mouth. Oh but I need help. I am so trying. The thing is I wasn’t even talking for the person to hear. I was talking to myself. I do that all the time. Does it mean that I talk to myself too loud? I think I should stop talking to myself aloud. One day I will get there. This is when I do realize I am so like like parents in a sense. There is time and I will learn to have that control.

The other incident I said to him if it happened again I would react in the same manner and wouldn’t care about filters. Actually I wouldn’t care about anything or anyone. When my children are involved I become like a lioness and forget all protocols. It was in writing this that I realized I had become my mother. She was a combination of a mother bear and a lioness when her children were in what she perceived as danger. I guess now that I’m walking in her shoes I have a better understanding.

Now the question is how to get to that place where you are able to be nice and still say no when you don’t want to do something asked of you. Are they mutually exclusive? Sigh. Let me know what you think. I have always heard that you need to get to the stage where you can say no without guilt and thus be able to control your life. If you say yes to everything I feel you lose control and everyone else has that control of your life. You also get really tired being a people pleaser. Yes, I so think you get into the realm of people pleasing. It makes you tired when you know you should say no to some things but you are so afraid of hurting peoples feelings that you give up your time to everyone but yourself.

Anyway getting back to the subject at hand I wonder if it’s easy to make the change that’s needed. I am working with the concept that I can make a new habit in a few months. So here I go off on my journey. I have to create that balance that will make me very happy and have other feeling fine. The important person here is me.

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